My mind is a beautiful chaos

Frightened on the outside.
Speeding in my mind.
Too many doubts.
Not enough highlights.
Specialized in deception.
Screaming out loud.
Spare no expense.
I want you to want me.
Why can’t you see that everyone wants a piece of Mary?
Here you stand.
Miles away.
Further, then I’d ever imagined.
You stain my lips and freeze my pulse.
Your charm is wearing thin.
Frowning helplessly, life strolls by.
Scared of never knowing.
Mistakes are always made.
Faults are always found.
And love is never on time.
-Soul of Aly