My mind is a beautiful chaos

The pain that lies behind my eyes shines all around me.I scare myself.I deliver my body into deprivation.The choices I’ve made were always unwise.There is so much good to seek.I am overflowing with love. It’s always been just me.Friends, they just come and go.They teach you what you were to learn for the movement and […]

Armor my mind so you cannot subside.Lace my heart closed.Punch holes in my flesh to ease my disgrace.Broken pieces of life fall into place, when you don’t seem to concentrate on the scrutiny of it all.I remain blind so truth can never be seen.Mystery is always enticing.Falsehood is not, but it does bleach the eyes […]

For moments I find insanity.Short tempered.Where’s the damn moon?No shine in my universe.Stars hide behind the fog.Swept away under the porch.Damned hornets.Counterfeit.Thieving animals.Everyone’s a suspect.Scream out loud.Howling into the night air.Reputation blows.Creeping by with hidden intentions.Who the hell needs anything but interruptions?Liar liar, I saw your truth.My mind is cluttered.Who judges mood?Death falls around me.Air […]

Inclined with the stars and the moon, feeling the sky begin to slowly burst.This heart of mine wallows still, as frustration crawls inward.My stained lips grow numb, my mind stores the etches they’ve touched.Never recall what you saw.Remember the whispers you heard.Winding inside.The answers draw near.There is nothing more sacred than what you fear.Why must […]

How can something so distant bring so much pain?Why is it so difficult to remove a loved one from your lifeline?I have tried everything in my power to rid myself of demons.I love myself, but also hate my actions.I cannot fulfill my needs, if I haven’t the strength.Can the outer world intervene to help those […]

I wish you were here to see me suffer through anxiety buildup.I’ve got my nails painted red, my eyes colored black.Pencil traced, but no secrets revealed.Skeleton bones, fatty tissue, muscles clenching.Breathe in, breathe out.I’m out of my mind, but full of gasoline.Burn baby burn for the torment I’ve found.Every second I’m alive, I’m alive, but […]

Torture has set its position in my life.My beliefs no longer matter.Love startles me.Fear throughout my body.Link me to human nature.Poison me with heartless gestures.I am not the chosen one.Beauty went in the opposite direction.Clenching Jaws.Nervous of my presence.Turn your head.Pretend no one is near.Hide your feelingsSomeone is watching.Bite your fingernails.I brush my fingers through […]

It’s getting harder and harder to resist.My love has returned, but not to me.Again, dwelling in the same city.I tried to strike but I’m discovering that my weakness is love.This love that I feel cannot be ignored.No matter where I lock it up or where I hide it, the feelings come back to haunt me.I […]

What has become of us?I push through my heartache.I can’t seem to make myself move from this weakened moment. The slime dripping from the walls of the house of pain reflects blood and lust.I loathe you terribly, but you are still the only one who makes my knees weak and my body tingle.I miss you. […]

When I look into the sky, I know that you are there.When I’m driving my car, you are sitting beside me.When I’m lying in my bed, you are sitting on the edge of it.Even closing my eyes doesn’t lock you out of my surroundings.The clouds seem to form your face.The stars shape and seize your […]